My boyfriend upped our bedroom activities a little (to be honest we did anal a couple of times which was a bit scary. The one time he failed to use a condom kind of traumatized me for a while. But I moved on. We're scheduling for an STI test at a local center anyway), bonded for quite a while and made plans to find a boarding house together so we could move in.
A bit of a bad news however is that just this afternoon, a ruined lunch plan led me to skip a meal. With only one boiled egg and a half for breakfast, I know deep inside that it's a disaster waiting to happen.
All went well for a while and we managed secure permission to collect some soil sample. It was when we were going home that all went wrong. I agreed to purchase some beverage for my thesis mates and I to quench our thirst. As I lined up for the cashier to pay our purchase, my vision turned blurry and I immediately felt faint and incoherrent. From the sides to the center, I could feel my vision dimmed. And I only managed to walk out before collapsing upon my thesis mate's shoulder.
The rest was all too fast and dark and confusing. But I do know that a lot of bystanders were focused on me breeding a feeling of embarrassment and irritation within me. To think that I am a liability to others is simply too much. A few guards were even on the scene and a manager (was he?) was handing me a cup of hot water. It really was an embarrassing episode.
With my limited knowledge, I am suspecting a mild heat stroke or a hypoglycemic attack. But there's no way in hell I'm confirming this with a doctor. For now, secrets secrets secrets.
If possible, I just want that one hour of embarrassment to be deleted from my memory. It's just too much to handle.
Addendum: I might want to add that after staying for a couple of days at my boyfriend's boarding house (or was that after we went to his hometown, Kidapawan? I forget easily ugh), I started to experience flu-like symptoms, loss of appetite, headaches, etc. I was suspecting caffeine withdrawal because I haven't been drinking tea since I stayed at his place (April 26, I believe). Or it could be a rise in my blood pressure because I managed to consume almost an entire roasted chicken. I wasn't experiencing a serious fever so I'm not sure how to approach the problem. Drinking tea and increasing my fluid intake + sleep time seemed to have fixed the problem. I can't help but wonder if this feeling of sickness is connected to the incidence today.
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